Here I Come Again…
I am slowly and steadily walking back into the human space. I am slowly feeling back to being really smartly normal.
I finally am coming to a realization that I want to go back being and living the wild life that I just love living.
It’s that impulse and its that rush that really drives me. Its that adrenaline of last minute excitement that I thrive on.
I breed my thoughts and my every breath over the adventure that life has always had in store for me.
One excitement would be just ending and the other one would have automatically starting to have its space in my life. The last couple of months for some reason came to really quite stand still and maybe because I was just feeling bored, I quite didn’t have that blood rushing into my head. All right! Lets be honest for once, we all know the reasons for our strange behavior.
We all from within ourselves understand what are we behaving the way we are – as we completely read our own feelings within ourselves. yes, Maybe we are unable to express them in a way that others would understand them – so by and large, just end up saying “I don’t know, why I am feeling this way” Or “May be its just one of those mood swings and it will pass”; when thoroughly, right from the top, to the bottom of your heart you would have all those reasons lined up and you clearly able to read them to know your reasons.
So yes, I knew why I was feeling the way I was and probably just didn’t have the energy left in me to fight that out. But now that’s all that in the past…I just love my life 
back. It’s like living and drinking again.
Ooops did I say drinking! Ah Well! The occasional night outs after a long hard drawn days at work just adds more to the wilderness. The real and distinctive spice to those night outs have actually been the last minute impulsive plans that have been materialized. So, maybe for me, it was not the ‘drinking’ aspect, it was more to do with the impromptu plans that added to my excitement.
Such is life. At times, we would be heard complaining “Oh Lord, too much is going on, all at once”. And when the Almighty says “Amen” and slows it down a little bit. We start our complaint ramblings once again “Just nothing exciting is happening”.
I think, I have enjoyed both the sides of the world. When I was going slow, yes, I was driving to come back to me, but now when I am sensibly looking back, I think it was much needed. It was much needed to understand – It’s just One Life, One Life Time.
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July 6, 2009 at 7:50 pm
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